Ok so I thought I was having a panic attack yday coz I couldn’t catch my breath and found it super hard to breathe…

One team.

One vision.

One assignment.

One goal.

One week.

One draft.

One proposal.

One novel therapeutic intervention.

One race against time.

We can do it!!!!! Yes we can!!! There is HOPE!!!!!

Im glad I have 2 wonderful team-mates that I can work well with.

My final final exams.

I'll be graduating soon,

And some how it feels lonely.

It will be a past soon,

And yet sometimes I want it to remain the present.

I don't want to grow up,

Because the world seems so endless,

And im barely waking.

Doubt fills my restless mind.

I still want to find an answer.

And being quiet doesn't help.

Sometimes Im scared.

Scared to know im always on His mind.

And I keep on falling in time.

I don't want to stop and yet, I keep losing my pace,

So.......I just keep moving along.

Over the past 4 years, I usually would tend to hide or refrain from showing a lot of emotions including crying buckets when I really feel the need to. But somehow this has been the total opposite as of late. I finally let myself go a week or two ago and now I can’t seem to control anything within me anymore. I think its good that I’ve learnt to let go of holding my emotions back but at the same time I don’t like the fact that my emotions have a “new” mind of their own. I’ve been experiencing extreme highs and lows that im not finding amusing at all. Sometimes, it’s all together emotionless. It scares me because I can’t explain any of them. But I’m gonna trust Him. Maybe He’s teaching me a lesson I’ve yet to learn and that makes me excited.

So if you see me one of these days and ask me how im doing, or if im ok, don’t be too alarmed if I just break down and turn on the water works. : )

I'm feeling fidgety, nervous and frustrated for no reason.

All I can hear is the ticking of my watch in my ear. And all I can do is pray.

My friends have been telling me I've been looking tired

But I cant seem to figure out why. The earlier I sleep, the earlier I get up in the morning.

I don't feel tired mentally but I do physically sometimes during the late mornings.

I get all quiet and don't talk much but it gets better as the afternoon passes and the shadows fade.

I just wish I could channel my spiritual energy somehow.

AND Sometimes I think the grass is no more greener on the other side.

I know it's late but I'm off to take a hot shower. Might help me calm down.